Praying for Missy

WOW....What a week this has been, Troy flew out last Sunday for his Medical Conference, I had decided to stay behind with kids, just seemed like its been crazy and I have had health issue's and then with Missy sick alot it just seemed like the right thing to do, I have had the feeling to get missy into a ENT doctor and get her tonsils out, when we had met with her teacher she had 23 absences this year so far... I heard of a good doctor and decided to get her in so we could get them out this summer I had even thought oh maybe in April over spring break...When they told me they could get me in on Tuesday i was like wow that was fast, we went and sure enough my hutch was right and missy needed them out, little did I know walking in to that office what I was facing and what I would feel when I walked out... He told me her Right Tonsil was abnormal/growth and it was double the size of her left tonsil, i was like okay, he then started shooting all these questions to me and i would say yes or no, and I thought what does this have to do with taking her tonsils out, as he talked he kept bringing up the word Lymphoma and that is when the KNOT in my throat started and in my head i am trying to understand what he is saying, i finally stopped him and said are you talking the C word?? and he then looked at me and said yes that is what I'm referring too... I don't really remember the rest of the visit, I know missy looked at me with her huge eyes trying to understand too... The nurse came into the room and said okay so Thursday? I'm going NO i'm not doing this before I get Troy home... I know its a rush to get it out, but I can't do this without TROY...So I told them we would let them know... I got half way home and me and missy didn't even say a word to each other, i think we were both just in SHOCK and speechless..When the office called cuz I had left my purse! I thought wow snap out of this Melanie!!! When we got home and missy was occupied by the TV I tried to reach Troy, I will never forget hearing his voice and feeling so grateful to be getting ahold of him, he was so good with me, since at this moment i was freaking out and saying how?he said the right things to calm me down and said he was actually in a class right now learning about it! We didn't talk long, it was just a sick feeling on both our end and stay POSITIVE for Missy was what we decided. We didn't sleep at all that night me or missy... she is having a hard time with anxiety I think with the Dr. talking in front of her.. That next morning was when it hit me and i was going through every emotion..I called the Dr. to confirm we would do this Monday and I had to ask if I really did understand what he had told me the day before, once again i put myself through hearing it and knowing it was not a dream... I wanted to get on I15 and go and just run from it... but I tried to pull myself together and go to work, that lasted a half hour and i ended home since my carbon detector was beeping all night, i had the questar gas man coming to check it... I ended up having visitors, my father in law stopped in and checked on us and also my sister in law... it was what I needed to distract me and pull myself together, i think also I was going on no sleep, Missy came home HAPPY and so glad she went to school, she told me it made her forget about it... so once I saw her happy i was able to feel peace... and that is where we are still positive and feeling peace with it all... We are saying POSITIVE~HOPE... one step at a time, first the tonsils and then we will wait for pathology to get the news... there saying its a 50/50 chance... we are praying we are the 50% NOT.....But if its the 50% that its Lymphoma we know its early and they will probley have it out.... PLEASE keep us in your prayers as we go Monday!! and as we wait this week for the NEWS.... THANKS to all our friends and family that have stopped in and called we are truly blessed by you...:)